I was struggling this morning in my "quiet time." I was reading from God Calling and also from The Contrarian's Guide to Spirituality. It just seems that lately, my mind wanders to financial matters, business issues or just this old life. I had switched my morning reading time to downstairs to do something different. I was reading for an hour or so before I heard the sound of Hannah upstairs running. Usually she wakes up, runs into my office and jumps in my chair and we snuggle for 5 minutes or so. Today she ran in and I wasn't there. She ran to my bedroom and I wasn't there. Then she saw the light on downstairs and ran to lie next to me on the couch where I was reading. She asked me to put my book down and just hold her.That was it.
I felt a small percentage of what God must feel like when we seek Him, when we find Him and when we revel in His presence. It seems so simple and easy. I was just reading in God Calling, which is a book about two women who prayed fervently for a year and believe that the heard the voice of Jesus in their prayers. As I was reading today, I read where Jesus was talking to us saying, "Seek Me, love Me, joy in Me. I am your Guide. Can you hold on in My strength? I need you more than you need Me (emphasis added)." God needs me! He wants to hear from me and to hold me.
How God must revel that I even seek Him. The joy He must feel, like my joy when I heard Hannah running upstairs looking for me. The Joy He must feel when we adore our time with Him, when we rest in Him. But then Hannah saw the time and had to get ready for school. She asked for 5 more minutes of being held before she had to go. This is a great time for BOTH of us. Then she went to get ready. Off she went and I went to my office to start the day of work.
After a working for a while, I heard Karina wake up and my heart felt that joy once again.
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